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sigh*
waking up in the morning having a heavy feeling.... lol

well, i have a dream...
as far as i remember it....
i was walking at somewhere when i was called (surname with shit) while heading somewhere. i ignored the scorns of the people around me but i feel hurt deep down.

then after that...together with someone that i assume is my mom, i approach someone that i assume that is teacher. i told her about my feelings, on how i was treated by a lot of people. then the teacher cried & said she is a failure. then after that, i hugged her, but after i hugged her she just disappeared.... the clothes that she's carrying are the ones i'm holding. then i approach someone to find the teacher. along the way of looking for the teacher, i found my classmate who's washing her clothes. she said that the teacher is there somewhere. i told her that im talking to the teacher a while ago but then she just suddenly disappeared while im talking with her. then after that i woke up. i feel heavy
sigh its weird.... my dream is weird...

para sa mga sinaktan ng mga babae na nagmahal ng bakla!!!wootwoot!!!

this is my real voice.. hehe what do u think? am i good enough for singing?

hehe, i don't think i made a good job when it comes to sounds...
T-T

have you ever wonder why there are some people who is bored over their lives?

i admit, there are times that i wonder why in the world that i am bored with my life. But hey, boredom is normal, right? its a disease that everyone has once in a while...

sigh* hehe, life in itself is strange...

Matthew 25:14-30 (New International Version)
The Parable of the Talents

14"Again, it will be like a man going on a journey, which called his servants and entrusted his property to them. 15To one he gave five talents of money, to another two talents, and to another one talent, each according to his ability. Then he went on his journey. 16The man who had received the five talents went at once and put his money to work and gained five more. 17So also, the one with the two talents gained two more. 18But the man who had received the one talent went off dug a hole in the ground and hid his master's money.
19"After a long time the master of those servants returned and settled accounts with them. 20The man who had received the five talents brought the other five. 'Master,' he said, 'you entrusted me with five talents. See, I have gained five more.'
21"His master replied, 'Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness!'
22"The man with the two talents also came. 'Master,' he said, 'you entrusted me with two talents; see, I have gained two more.'
23"His master replied, 'Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness!'
24"Then the man who had received the one talent came. 'Master,' he said, 'I knew that you are a hard man, harvesting where you have not sown and gathering where you have not scattered seed. 25So I was afraid and went out and hid your talent in the ground. See, here is what belongs to you.'
26"His master replied, 'you wicked, lazy servant! So you knew that I harvest where I have not sown and gather where I have not scattered seed? 27Well then, you should have put my money on deposit with the bankers, so that when I returned I would have received it back with interest.
28" 'Take the talent from him and give it to the one who has the ten talents. 29For everyone who has will be given more and he will have abundance. Whoever does not have, even what he has will be taken from him. 30And throw that worthless servant outside, into the darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.'

Personal Experiences & Realization

Talents are treasures that need to nurture, right? So that’s why, I realized that that I need to harness it in every way I can. I am usually the person who doesn’t have any confidence in my abilities. I know for a fact that talents are something to nurture, but because I think that my abilities are only just average, & there are so many people who can do better than me. & besides, I know for a fact that I can never stand a chance for those people who are already an expert on the things that I do. But I was wrong. I just realized that I have lots of abilities that others cannot do. I know that there are some people who can do things better than I can but it doesn’t matter. Now, I do things in order for me to nurture my God’s given skills & talent. For me, I know that if God gave me this talent, I have to nurture it, make it more productive. I know that I’m still not good enough, but I know that in one single step that I make, with guidance from Him, I know I can nurture these talents.
I wanted to thank God because he already made me realized my potential before, that is why, as of now, I am more confident of the skills & abilities that I have. I know that hard work plus faith in God plus faith in my abilities equals immeasurable gifts from Him. God is now giving me a chance to nurture it, so as of now, I never waste even a slightest opportunity to make it grow & more productive.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, & lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, & he shall direct your path.” This is the verse which I turned to like. I forgot the bible verse if this, but I know that this verse helped me a lot whenever I feel down because i think I am good for nothing. I know that I just need to hold on to Him. & honestly, with all of my pride, I tell each & every people who will read this; I trust God because he gave me a lot of things to make me become stronger, he gave me a talent that is very unique, but it suites me just right. He gave me trials in life to make me stronger in life. I learned that all this time, he is with each & every one of us. I want to thank God for making me understand & learn all these things in an early age. I want to thank God for this wisdom in itself.


Prayer
Dear God almighty, thank you for this day, thank you for all the trials that I experienced in life, Thank you because, you gave me this wisdom that I now use in my everyday life. Lord, I may be a sinner, but I know, with your knowledge, guidance, & wisdom, I know I can survive with life. Thank you for making the Holy Bible in itself because without it, we human beings never know what real wisdom is all about. Lord my God, I claim that you may give us your wisdom for us to use it in our daily lives. I also claim for your undying courage & love so that we can survive any trials that may arise. Lord dear God the father, forgive us on our sins, & protect us from all the anxiety, as we wait for your son. All of us commit sins, no one is exempted, and even I commit mistakes as well. But I know that, if we will put our trust in You & do Your commandments, I |am sure that each & everyone will be saved. Lord my God, thank you for the skills & abilities that you gave to us. I promise Lord God, that I myself will nurture these gifts that you gave me for you.

in everything that we do, in everything that we see reminds us of someone

Nae meoriga neomuna nappaseo
neo hanapakke nan moreugo
tareun sarameun pogoittneun neon
ireon naema-eumdo moreugettji

neoui harue naran eoptgettji
tto chu’eokjoch’a eoptgettjiman
neoman paraman pogoittneun nan
chakku nunmuli heureugoisseo

neoui dwaetmoseubeul poneungeotdo nan haengbokiya
ajik naui ma-eumeul mollado
kkeutnae seuch’ideusi kado

niga neomu pogosip’eun nalen
neomu kyeondigi himdeul naleneun
neoreul saranghanda ipgae maemdola
honja dasi tto CRYING FOR YOU
honja dasi tto MISSING FOR YOU
Baby! I love you! I’m waiting for you!

neoui harue nan eoptgettji
tto kieokjoch’a eoptgettjiman
neoman paraman pogoittneun nan
honja ch’ueokeul mandeulgo isseo

naegen sarangiran areumdaun sangch’eokat’a
neoui yeppeun misoreul poado
hamkke nan utjido mothae

niga neomu saenggaknaneun nalen
kaseum sirigo seulp’eun naleneun
niga pogosip’ta ipgae maemdola
honja dasi tto CRYING FOR YOU
honja dasi tto MISSING FOR YOU
Baby! I love you! I’m waiting for you!

Bye, bye, never say goodbye
ireohke chapji mothajiman
I need you amu maldo mothae I want you
paraedo dasi paraedo

niga neomu pogosip’eun nalen
neomu kyeondigi himdeul naleneun
neoreul saranghanda ipgae maemdola
honja dasi tto CRYING FOR YOU

niga neomu saenggaknaneun nalen
kaseum sirigo seulp’eun naleneun
niga pogosip’ta ipgae maemdola
honja dasi tto CRYING FOR YOU
honja dasi tto MISSING FOR YOU
Baby! I love you! I’m waiting for you!

[English Version]
I’m really, very foolish
I know of no one other than you
you’re looking at someone else
yet you have no idea of my feelings like this

I won’t be in your days
I won’t be in the memories either, however
only you, I looked only at you
and the tears keep coming

As i watch you walking past, I’m still happy
even yet you still don’t know my heart
I should stop this and go

I really want to see the day
I’m withstanding the pain each day
“I love you” is playing on my lips
Alone once again, crying for you
alone once again, missing for you
Baby, I love you, I’m waiting for you

I won’t be in your days
I won’t be remembered either, however
only you, I looked only at you
I’m making memories alone

Loving you is like having a beautiful wound
I look at your pretty smile also
but I cannot laugh with you

I’m thinking about you so much everyday
my heart is hurting in all these sad days
‘I want to see you’ is playing on my lips
alone once again, crying for you
alone once again, missing for you
Baby, i’m waiting for you, I love you

bye bye, never say goodbye
even though I cannot hold you like this
I need you, I cannot say anything more, I want you
I keep on hoping too, I’ll keep hoping….

I really want to see the day
I’m withstanding the pain each day
“I love you” is playing on my lips
Alone once again, crying for you

I’m thinking about you so much everyday
my heart is hurting in all these sad days
‘I want to see you’ is playing on my lips
alone once again, crying for you
alone once again, missing for you
Baby, i’m waiting for you, I love you

I FEEL SO PEACEFUL LATELY, WELL, THERE ARE SOME RANDOM THINGS HAPPENING BUT THIS TIME ITS DIFFERENT. I DON'T FEEL THE PRESSURE, ITS LIGHT... ITS, PEACEFUL.

NOW I REALIZED... EVERYONE DESIRES FOR PEACEFUL LIFE, BUT DO THEY KNOW THAT TOO MUCH PEACE CAN LEAD TO SERIOUS BOREDOM?

I JUST REALIZED THAT.

BUT I APPRECIATE THE PEACEFULNESS OF MY LIFE SO FAR, CUZ I KNOW IT WON'T LAST FOREVER...

BUT I STILL CAN'T HELP BUT TO THANK GOD FOR GIVING US PROBLEMS IN LIFE, AS WELL AS PEACE, CUZ IF LIFE IS TOO MUCH IN PEACE, ITS BORING, IF LIFE HAS TOO MUCH PROBLEMS, NO ONE CAN EVER JOGGLE THOSE PROBLEMS & EVENTUALLY,A HUMAN BEING WILL JUST DESIRE TO DIE...